I remember that I've written a journal entry, a month and a half ago, about how I was going to quit dA. I was almost positive that it was going to happen because I've had enough of this crap where people constantly sending me notes about how I'm stupid and how I'm a dork because of my sexual orientation. When I came back on dA, it was because a few of my best and true online friends have convinced me that they'd be by my side with this kind of shit happens. So, I decided to give dA another chance. But over these past few weeks, I've been feeling depressed again (don't worry I express my sadness through tears now, but I tend to get emo on people and start cutting myself). There's been journals made about me saying that I've been bullying people online while they were just making stuff up to get attention, talking about them behind their back when I was just trying to stand up for a friend while they're getting bullied by other people and made others want to quit dA. I realize that I have flaws, which is why I would like to say that by me quitting dA would be the most benefical for the rest of you. I know you all don't CARE if I quit dA, so I bet you wouldn't even fucking bother reading this journal entry. It doesn't matter, I just want all these bitches to recognize who they are. I mean, to top all this crap up, I have real life shit happening, which makes me even more pissed off at these online people who continue to make my life worse and worse everyday. I'm afraid of logging on dA now, because of all this shit that's been happening. I'm not even enjoying looking at art now, which is the point of dA. I have been so distracted trying to deal with all this nonsense that's been happening to even start drawing, which is one of my passions, that's how sad my life is. Oh, wait.. I don't have one according to all of you bitches who continue to send me notes telling me that I have no friends and continue to fail at life. I'm not looking for more drama in my life, this isn't deviantDRAMA, this is deviantART, so let it live up to it's name and stop submitting all these perverted pictures here. deviantART surprises me everyday, especially how someone that thinks I'm a complete loser decides to ask a random user to tell me to burn in hell.

I should be partying with a glass of champagne right now and getting excited over the fact that the new year is almost here, but I'm sitting in front of a computer writing this pathetic journal. You wouldn't be seeing me on dA after today as I don't want to start the new year off to a rough start and have bitch fights like I am having now. 2008 is a bad enough year for me, so I'd appreciate it if you guys didn't ruin 2009 for me.

Thanks alot.

I have decided to quit dA as of sometime in November (the date has been decided, but I might change my mind). Any thoughts or comments before I go?

[EDIT]: I don't want to repeat myself, but I want to mention that I am only leaving for a little over a month. I'm coming back in January. Hopefully, by then, I could start the year off by posting some new artwork. I know some of the marks on my report card - I am certainly not impressed. So, throughout that time, I will be studying with all my might to get a decent mark. Seriously, I beat myself up everyday because I'm not proud of them. I am really pissed at myself. I went on my school website and they posted the list of people who made the honour roll - I want to be one of those people. But too bad that I'm not a straight A student. Oh, yeah - people have been insulting me through a note and I don't know those people at all (either as my watchers or as friends).

Wow. I think that this is one of the odd journals where I would never use a smilie. It's really creepy.

Well. I'm getting my report card soon.
I know what the majority of my marks are. ^^
But I'm not happy with them.
Such as with science and french. OTL;;
I know that I could have done better, but due to my stupidity, that was not made possible. x3

So. How are you doing in school? :]
Hopefully, better than me? c:

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Comment on journal.
Makes Fursora happy.
Never thought you'd live to see the day.
When. She. Posts. A. Picture. Of. Herself.

[EDIT] Thinking of getting a makeover soon.
Thinking of putting mascara on to make self not look so ugly.
Thinking of putting eye shadow on to draw people's attention away from my hideous eyes.
Not. fishing. for. compliments.
Not. being. modest.
Just. telling. you. how. I. feel.